L a u r a W e t h e r i n g t o n & H a n n a h E n s o r —
Feel Piece 7
This piece is part of what I think
but not it all. I am often surprised when I begin
to find that I do have something / I do have
what I think. I’ll tell you I don’t think
anything there. I’m wrong.
Feel Fragments II
i.
It’s been forever since I’ve seen a mountain
Yesterday I dreamt I was home
The toddler woke at midnight chanting “banana”
until he ate one
So many of these moments
I will never remember
even if I write them down
even, sometimes,
when I read them again
Who was that?
What was she thinking?
Some memories are for now and some are underwater.
I keep
forgetting today
ii.
What comes to mind when I say enemy. Can I iconography my way
out of this. Centrifugal. The lag and the simultaneity. Where is “low.”
Is there a color. What first comes to mind. I’ll get some candy.
iii.
In this scene I am the bitch because I’m panting and because I am
the orange light I’ve always wanted to dapple. I’ve been the runt, been the
open palm, been the dancing child, been the mom come to take a thing away.
What kind of thing? The lighter on the stove, the one time I was wrong, the smooth skin
that doesn’t wear down. Doesn’t take the shape of me. Warms.
People called me a rock and what they meant was warming.
iv.
quiet is a fieldwork
v.
becoming a better person is a lifework
vi.
I was sitting all crooked
I was sitting My hips
I was sitting anything good
I was sitting on the step
I was sitting talking about Puritans and Prigs again
I was sitting with you
tourist in my own shelter
I was sitting the reason
I was sitting tight shoulder
I was sitting too tight today
I was sitting slept alone, dreamless
I was sitting thought-labeling feelings
It’s no longer Wednesday
I was sitting the sparking-texts
the nature of that feeling
I was sitting the sparking-texts
while experiencing that spark
just the things that were sparked by
not letting it pass
When the spark is felt
my right eye still aflame
I was sitting the sparking-texts
When the spark is felt
all the clutter and the air
A cloud of air and with and hover
the light on the couch
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